When shopping for fabric for a pattern... ALWAYS have it with you. Or at least the fabric length requirements.Jeff's outfits will have no sleeves. Realized last night I am a yard and a half short on two fabrics that were affordable because they were fifty % off.  They are no longer. Have half the pattern cut. Bah.
Do not like fabric stores enough to go spend lots of time in them. do not have the skl number for them. Do not like having to go to the store as it was far away but it was a tapestry and the one I went to today didn't carry that particular tapestry. (I spent a lot of time in them as a kid and that memory haunts me in Joanne fabrics I go to)
Also, went to IKEA for no discernible reason and do not like that i have to go through the whole store before I can leave. I am also mad at them because i felt bad that there was nothing I wanted to buy. I went through their whole store and nothing tempted me into looking at it long enough to check the price. I feel let down.

When I was in high school I decided that instead of being president when I grew up I was going to be world tyrant by the time I was thirty five.
The plan to become Bonnie, The Benevolent Dictator, is failing. I feel a little something die in me when i realize that the closest I came to being Her Benevolency is when I was still active duty and the guy who guarded the big red button owed me a favor.
I am feeling my age tonight. As such, I have decided that I am not turning thirty this year. I am turning 28. I may stay that age until Jeff is older than me.
The mirror is not being kind to me today. I am not being kind to my reflection by pointing out all of it's flaws. There is not much kindness in total.

Tomorrow is another day though right?

My personality as defined by the test we took in Communications. These were almost equally weighted.

Orange Personality:

Things that frustrate oranges:	Things oranges do that frustrate others:
·        Rules and laws	·        Ignoring rules
·        Same routine	·        Being undisciplined
·        Deadlines	·        Lack of planning
·        Paperwork	·        Being quick-tempered
·        Lack of adventure	·        Thinking out loud
·        Too much structure	·        Impulse buying

Green Personality:

Things that frustrate greens:	Things greens do that frustrate others:
·        Routine	·        Not being sociable
·        Small-talk	·        Living in the future
·        Plagiarism	·        Being wordy and sarcastic
·        Illogical arguments	·        Blowing up when criticized
·        Social functions	·        Not going with the flow
·        Incompetence	·        Being too independent

Is it wrong that I fixed some of the grammar? Examples are to versus too, things color does to frustrate others. It's done just to piss other people off.
I also keep reading the oranges part and giggling thinking of the fruit.

factoring polynomials makes much more sense when I don't listen to the teacher. I felt that way in my last math class as well. Why?
Also word combinations, such as factoring polynomials, are intimidating in themselves.

:( I am so not good at waking up in the morning.

if I leave Jeff's place, I'll buy a pack of smokes on the way home. I haven't bought any cigarettes since Thurs. That means I've been smoking shorts since Friday night. Which means I'm out of shorts. I'm a little twitchy right now.

and I keep getting killed by a fetish in Diable 2.

Atrocious spelling and bad grammar bother me greatly. Mediocre spelling and grammar are mediocre and tolerable. I wonder sometimes about people when I have read what they have written. I say to myself, "Self, do you think they even looked at what they have posted in a public manner?"
Next on my list of things to bitch about. If I am too stupid to find the class, that should mean I am too stupid to take the class right?
Why the fuck are books so expensive?
That is all. I am going to go enjoy one of my last cigarettes cause quitting has to happen again as i am too broke to breathe flavored polluted air into my lungs.

( these speak to me at some level ) Also before I saw Dee's post. And then cut them.

I'm dumb.
On my asvab test I scored higher in engineering than a lot of the military engineers I knew. Could I figure out how to get a toilet seat off the toilet. I was just going to say off but you fuckers have dirty minds. No I couldn't. 40 minutes cause I couldn't connect that there was a screw that had a bolt.
I am dumb.
I may start drinking now.

So yesterday was a day of excitement. English finished. I turned in my last essay. I'm thinking maybe a c in that class. It sucked so hard.
Played a lot of Diablo. Stupid evil game.
Learned about some things that just pissed me off.
My toilet seat was cracked. This is funny. So I went to Home Depot today to get a new one. Important cause a number of people are coming over to drink tonight. Who knew there were so many toilet seats to choose from. A plethora, a wall of choices. And toilet seats come in multiple sizes. Anyway there is a specific type of seat called Laurel. My sister's name is Laurel. I had to get that one just so I could give her shit. HAH! Sorry it entertained me greatly.
Looking forward to tonight. It'll be fun.
Also the girl bagging my groceries threw a bag on top of my flowers. Why would you do that. I put them last so that wouldn't be done. If she didn't look so damn dumb I would have thought it was done maliciously.

finally sent an email to my teacher. going wtf do i not get grades in this class?
I'm scared I'm going to fail this class and have my GI Bill takes it's money back. I have failed English before by not doing my work. But the idea that I have no clue what my grade is is Inconceivable. Except well it's in existence .
Argh. Frustrating Sucky class with horribley boring topics and NO Feedback.

creationism musuem is having a dino dig! how awesome is that. Ok I think they already did it, but the people who say that dinos didn't exist blah blah and humans coexisted with dinos and that the world was created in 6 days are having dino digs!
shaedowsyn  I thought of you blogs.answersingenesis.org/blogs/creation-museum/2009/12/31/digging-up-dinosaurs/

I am a grown up. Being grown is usually an introduction to drama. I am a grown up.
I am a grownup; therefore, I can control my petty petty mind.
Favorite new light at the end of the tunnel image

( snark )
I had fun at the littles party and even stayed inside little space for a while. Discussing blow jobs with a buddy blew me out of it for a long time though.

built a fort on my bed with the head board blankets and pillows and curled and went to sleep. The day is a little better and much better than last night. still need to write my english teacher a note along the lines of why have I handed in 14 assignments, only have two graded with NO FUCKING feedback. The class ends in ten days.
this is my rage face. Look at me rage

Some very strong concerns of mine have been alleviated. Concerns that I didn't want to bring up since I've been told that because the last time I brought up concerns of a different nature, to the people involved I was apparently attacking them. No I was just concerned. I've also been informed I'm on their less than favorites list because of this and my last concern.

My first boyfriend evah added me to his facebook today. He's legally changed his last name. We said h's andi what are you doing nows. He keeps in touch with a majority of the people I didn't. He's still in CT. He looks very similar. He's 30. The world was supposed to be vastly different when we were thirty.

I got Jeff a new body wash today and tried it out. I like it. I smell like a sexy man going on a date.
Le sigh. Not liking people that I don't care enough about to dislike keeps biting me in the ass. I don't care enough to not be courteous. I don't care enough to be especially polite.
Next topic. I've noticed that in the last few years I've become much more prone to snap judgments about people. While usually I have found myself right. Some people I should give more time to. Something I may remember to work on. the green states according to ok cupid are where I am most likely to find my ideal match. I am amused by the lack of love i find in northern states. The whole map changed on the religion and marijuana questions. They were separate questions by the way.